Posts Tagged ‘suicide’

why does my life suck, and what should I do?

I have been pushed around and made fun of my entire life, I had no friends growing up, I was beat up constantly, and my parents were both drunks, so I got beaten at home too. My mother used to put out cigarettes on my head. It got that the school beatings were less then the home beatings so I did not want to go home. The kids in school got together and made an award for me as the most unpopular kid in school when I was in 6th grade. I graduated high school, and my luck never got better,during high school my parents got divorced and blamed the entire thing on me and said I was an accident, and they wish they had never had me. They both put on their item list that neither one of them wanted custody of me.Then I flunked out of college, couldn’t hold a decent job, I still had no friends. and that went on until I was 23 when I met my now wife, and for the first time in my life I was happy, she liked me for me, and she was good to me. A year and a half ago we got married, and she totally changed. She became very abusive and calls me an effen retard, and stupid a@@ all the time, and she hits me with things and smacks me calling me retarded. I had thought about divorce and then we found out that she was pregnant, and the first words out of her mouth were I hope that our kid is not a retard like you, so now I can’t divorce her. We also recently had to file bankruptcy, and I lost my car and my job, and up until recently have been unemployed for the last six months, and we got evicted from our apartment, and had to move back in with my dad. Let me tell you I am 26, and I still feel like a child, I get picked on from both of them, and my mother when I see her, I have no car to get away and no friends to hang out with, I am seriously considering suicide, but I don’t want to leave another child without a father, and I always swore I would try to be a better parent than mine were to me, but I wonder if I can be. I an not happy in my marriage and I would never cheat on my wife, but she doesen’t believe in sexual relations anymore, just to add fuel to the fire. I mean all my life I have never had someone that I could go hang out with who thought I was cool, and when someone tried to talk to me I tried so hard to get them to like me, that they all run away. I cry daily now, and just want to give up, I have no hobbies, I would like to learn how to ride a horse, and at 260lbs, everyplace I tried laughed at me and said I was too fat, I can’t fit in anywhere, and I am typing this as a last resort to see if anyone actually cares, but I don’t feel that I will get any responses

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I need good advice. Should I get a divorce?

Should I get a divorce? I have been married for 4 years and the entire relationship is about my husband. He has a lot of issues. First, he is an alcoholic. I have tried to help him and support him when he says that he is going to stop, but he always starts back drinking. After we were married I found out he cheated on me with this woman who attempted to commit suicide when she found out he was married (which tells me that this was an intimate relationship, not a one night stand like he told me). But I forgave him. He lost a job because of his drinking and began to drink all day every day. During this time I was pregnant. I had to pay all the bills all while I was pregnant. My entire pregnancy was miserable; the only time I was able to enjoy it was on the day of my baby shower. He stayed drunk so much that I had to ask a neighbor if they could help me if I had to go to the hospital in the middle of the night. He ran up a high cell phone bill talking to an ex girlfriend who lived in another state. I had to file for bankruptcy because I could no longer afford the bills on my own. I lost my home that I worked so hard to get before I married him. I could have lost my job because my credit is so dependent on me maintaining a security clearance. I helped him find a good job that offered good benefits and possible advancement. Right before he started the job he got arrested for a DUI. Well, once he actually started the job he was unable to pay any household bills because he had to pay for the lawyer and child support for his other children from a previous relationship. He barely helped me with any of the household bills. We have separated 2 times for short periods of time, but I always feel sorry for him because he says he doesn’t have a place to go. He has hit me before and has pulled a gun on me. He calls me out of my name whenever we get into arguments. He just received about 7000 from school and only gave me 700 for bills. He goes out and buys all this unnecessary stuff, including beer and cigarettes and claims that he is buying things for us. Recently, he quit the good job and says that he is about to start his own business. The job he had paid for his child support and benefits for his other kids. He never helps me buy things for our child. He says that he doesn’t help me with the bills because I don’t tell him what is due. I am a totally different person. I went from a size 8/10 to a size 16. I am always angry I find myself lashing out at people and I know this is because of the situation I PUT MYSELF IN… But why can’t I just file for divorce and get him out of my life. I called the attorney and gave him all of my information, but I haven’t sent him the payment yet. I know that I am not in love with him, but I can’t understand what is holding me back from mailing the payment to start the divorce. I know this is unhealthy. I know this is a lot but can someone outside reading in tell me clearly why I am holding on and what you think I should do. Please help me any good advice.

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i need to file bankruptcy for my credit card debt?

I have ,000 debt and wanna file bankruptcy?
i have 3 credit cards, and wanna file bankruptcy. heres one little thing…. one of those cards, i’d accidently typed my birthdate in wrong when i signed up, so instead of 1988, its actually 1986. and its been 3 years and i never bothered changing it back

the rest of the cards are all entered correctly, so when i file bankruptcy, what do i do? will it come up as a problem?

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i have mental problems and cant keep a job.

i have no money, i cant pay my bills.

i cant get a consolidation loan because my credit sucks.

so if i dont file, what am i suppose to do? let all my bills default? go into collection? i have no assets anyway so they cant do shlt

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pay what i owe, easy for you to ******* say.
thats actually what I did, for a year. I worked full time, worked full time. and barely made ends meet, I barely paid all the minimums, and got really depressed and sick of life, and thought about suicide.

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I have become homeless this year, I want to file taxes but can't with No address, PLEASE HELP ME?

I really have no family that will help as we were never close. I have thought carefully about suicide but would anyone care? I can’t open an account to get social security why no address. Plus the banks look at you like your scum, maybe I am, they didn’t think that way when I was put 1000’s of dollars in the bank. I also have 1000’s of dollars in credit card debt from 3 yrs ago and should file bankruptcy but can’t do that either no address.I don’t know what to do. I stay clear of homeless help places because I am embarrassed and don’t want there hand outs. I just need to file taxes ( I owe nothing but did cash in an old ins. policy for money) and can’t seem to get help. I went into HR Block and all they did was rub there head. I have found out in this great country if you have NO phone or address you can do nothing. Is there anyone out there that can help or is it better to just end it all. Please help……
I can’t thank everyone that took the time to answer my question. Just knowing that someone out there is thinking of you always helps. Isn’t it odd that family who really could help choose not to because you made or had some one for you make the wrong decisions in life. As for church thats a joke, I give up on them years ago. While driving to church one day I saw a young man digging in the dumpster so I stopped and feed him and also gave him as much food as he could carry. He didn’t want much because the others would steal it. I told my minister we should open the church kitchen one day a month and feed the hungry people. His answer was "someone that doesn’t deserve it might get free food". My answer thats between GOD and them. I just can’t bring myself to ask for help it is embarrassing to know you failed in life. When the money ran out so did my wife. But a BIG thanks to all of you that care…
As for the internet very easy I still have a broken down laptop and wireless so I walk to the nearest in town motel and set by the back door and wahla, internet for free.You can also go to the truck stop and use theres. Maybe that’s stealing I hope not. But why is it the illegals in this country can qualify all the things I can’t? I hate to lie so filling out forms with false statements goes against my teachings.

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Has the bill passed allowing me to put my home in a bankruptcy?

H.R. 1106 has a clause allowing one to put their primary residence into a bankruptcy, therefore lowering the monthly payment to an affordable one. At this time the wealthy can put a vacation home, boat and airplane into a bankruptcy.
I am 71 years old diabetic with congestive heart failure. I have lived in my home for 36 years. 10 years ago I went to my bank asking for a business loan. The banker suggested I take the equity out of my home and and change my loan to an adjustable loan. For the first 3 years it was fine. However my business failed and I’m on social insecurity. I have emptied my savings, sold my furniture and jewelry to pay the ever increasing mortgage. My monthly income is 3.00 a month and my mortgage now is 23.00 per month. If I cannot get help from the courts, my only other alternative is suicide.
To the best of my knowledge H.R. 1106 was passed by the senate and sent to the congress last week and is stil sitting there.

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